more moaning

[daf]

today i feel like yesterdays news... the cloud of bleak i've been attempting to avoid descended upon me despite my precautions [eating pizza yesterday and not sleeping at home]

currently in uni trying to rectify the mess that is my third year... relying upon the kindness of strangers in a bureaucratic institution is not something that fills me with confidence.

i really need a change of direction socially... the isolation that is my studio's probably not helping either.

i don't make new years resolutions (i resolved this on new years eve back in 2002) but if i did, more exercise and alcohol or other intoxicant induced interaction with strangers would be mine for this year.

i can't stand having a negative frame of mind, but seeing the positive side of things right now is proving most taxing

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[brokenbeany.livejournal.com]

Getting engaged in real life events as opposed to ones that revolve around the old way of life and the stuff constantly dabbled in really has helped me a lot. It has also helped me recognise the people who really do care about me, and are more than just narcotic induced association which seem, a lot of the time to be based on some sort of London popularity contest. Life outside all of this has a lot more to offer.
Hope you can sort out your uni stuffs.
Re-locating seems like a good move if you can.

[redlaurie.livejournal.com]

Urgh- sorry mate- really don't know what to say but I do know know this will pass. Hug

[spoox.livejournal.com]

Sorry you are feeling bleak, chum. I've not seen you in ages. If you ever fancy a quiet weekend in the midlands then let me know; it owuld be good to see you.

[lucifiction.livejournal.com]

Let me know when you're free to come over for dinner?

[uv-lue.livejournal.com]

as per my current revision topic:

negative attributions = pessimistic beliefs = future negative beliefs

mr beck's cognitive triad - and of course that, as we all know, it is generally one's own negative and internal beliefs about oneself that continue in a downward thought affect spiral.

distraction is the absolute key - and luckily you can distract yourself by concentrating on uni...it worked a treat for me last year.

sorry to hear you're feeling glum, remember it's not your fault and you'll feel better soon as long as you keep telling yourself that you're great. but you know that anyway ;)

[mlh4002003.livejournal.com]

Hope you start to feel better soon sweetie. I've had a few disappointments too recently, got all upset earlier.